I am the type of individual who must find constructive things to do with her time all the time in order to feel as though she is living life.
I don't like sitting around watching TV.
I can't sit still.
I can't stand sleeping in too late.
It's not productive.
I don't like being trapped indoors for too long.
I feel like it makes me stagnant creatively.
I can't go too long without touching pen to paper or stylus to tablet.
It's cathartic.
I haven't done much experimenting these days. And today, I realized that a line must be thoughtfully drawn with a paintbrush, sopping wet with rich black ink, so that I may cross it to get to where I want to be: inky and messy, my mind thick and full of ideas...of fragments of pictures and paintings and poetry and lyrics that won't be overanalyzed and drawn down, stripped and streamlined. I want to delve into my ideas and get messy. I want to feel them permeate my skin and ooze from every pore...
I need to tap into the things that so often drive me toward new and different directions. I crave something different. I just feel like it's been a while, you know? It's been a while since my last post, and I'm not okay with that.
I love the feeling that's conjured up when I look at my hands to see that my finger tips are ink stained or covered in dye or chalk or bits of oil pastels... This sight is a reminder that I've just filled ten more pages in my sketchbook with a limitless number of ideas and new things I can now begin to experiment with...
I think I need to challenge myself in some way.
Let's see if I can write in here or post a picture, a video, or...something...everyday for the next seven days...
If I can do that, then there's no reason why I can't keep on truckin' after that point.